i never wanted it to be this
i never wanted this
to be forever
but it wasn’t forever
until we made it so
these things never last
don’t we know that
better than anyone else does
or should
know
so do i
some forevers seem short
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outmoded coexistence
makes room for gospel
centurion idols
abandon posts
turn hostile
sun-scratched plains
preemptive offal
plastic prefecture
consumed by the models
ours is the sun
melts hemispheres
burns holes
invisible
preens
disfigures
corrodes
recycles dreams
with ease of augur
endorphins sing
to cadence offered
slaughtered
en masse
deserves to be landfill
our mother is burning
remains at a standstill
of·fal- noun
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left suburban cities
ran to the hills
back where i told you
“i love you still”
left it back in cali
back in the filth
back in a lockbox
before it held pills
this is a fourth or a third now
of my life
i’ve spent without you
i shouldn’t have burned the bridges
in higher hopes of eviction
this is my waste of human skin
this is my backdrop
this is the stage
this is the end of it
the book’s last page
this is the reason i took it and ran
this is the end, i
shouldn’t have sugarcoated it
i should’ve told you
clipped the wings i coveted
who am i lying to?
i’m lying bare and awfully parched
been soaked in tar for way too long
could’ve been an artist
could’ve married young
could’ve took my friends then, i
should’ve run
i couldn’t fight it
they lost me too
i’ve been taken by
what’s taken you
this is a fifth or sixth now
of my life where nothing makes sense
severed all ties
disconnected
no second chance
no happy ending
what really happened to all my plans?
this is the reason
this is the way
this is midnight
dark until it’s day
this is the way it has to be
this is the end, i
couldn’t have gotten over it
i should’ve left you
before all this was evident
who am i lying to?
you should’ve known it from the start
i’ve been holding back for way too long
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Mother’s day poem
verdant bloom
weeping, i
could choke back tears
until they’re dry
palm on cheek
embracing, i
missed you so much
but that’s alright
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blank slate
clean slate
let’s start over
how many times
have we been down this road now?
it feels like forever
and no time at all
where did those years go
if you say they weren’t lost?
my photographic memories
are polaroids
fade
if you knew
what i’d give
to rekindle our flame
for even one ember
is all it takes
to reignite what we lost
i’ll burn for you
because you told me to
way back when
all else was pointless
you gave me pause
to contemplate my purpose
and i would burn
burn
so feverishly bright
that every night would be consumed
by wildfire
we contrived
assume all else burns fitfully
or sublimes
would our pasts be requited?
when you realize nothing ever lasts
will you have decided?
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speak in codes
because i’m a mode of existence
and i insist
you resist
the urge to be written
i digress
and detest
every ache of every page
i filled books
and mistook
your happy endings
as mistakes
but mistakes
are not forevers
here’s the truth:
i’m better
and i’ll never apologize
because i’ve been kicking
and alive
and you’ve been killing so much time
like time deserved to die
and how many times have i
used that refrain
and how many times
has it read the same
and how many times
have you been there
reading over my shoulders
waiting for me
to spell your name
and you’ll get no satisfaction
not from me
not now
and not ever
so, here’s to you
i’m better
and i’m so much better
without your letters
making no sense
what-so-fucking-ever
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i never learned my lessons
life trammels
bound in shackles
lost every battle
i had to higher standards
without mine
each hurdle is for me
curdles
feigns free
soul is not vessel
i am not end all
let hands clasp
together
no better
we run in circles
to make tracks significant
cover
our tracks
and then we’re not us again
i lost all my love again
not the same man i am
i am never vessel
solely not
souls are bought
so highest bidder
catch my back light
stay tailgate
left lane
my failsafe
pass everyone
don’t catch up
catch bad
here’s nothing
still remains for pluck grease
only need luck to steer
everywhere
i’d rather be
anywhere but here today
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this
is the last time
my future
can’t be mine
coddled
to be cozened
when you’re broken
so am i
i’m over
not an ocean
you’re the last star
in the sky
when you’re gone
it’s forever
you’ll miss me
so do i
coz·en/ˈkəz(ə)n verb
trick or deceive.”do not think to cozen your contemporaries”
obtain by deception.”he was able to cozen a profit”
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midnight in a blue world
in the highest glass castle
far beyond the rabble
wind drowns out the battles
we fight between our headphones
piece by piece
ashes drip
embers wisp to endlessness
cigarette pressed to trembling lips
moonlight diamonds
chain link fists
howling traffic
halfhearted kisses
makes me pine for neon bugs
far below
on the road is where this heart yearns to be
but i’ve wasted all my wishes
on empty days
and better things
3AM is when the city sleeps
and i can breathe
the clouds are gone
finally
stars above
i’ll never reach
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impetus precedes me
encumbered by the lashings;
i’ve been acquitted
but so too have i been paltry
i’m off me
talking of things far beyond me
so far off
i’m osprey
skimming water for the bodies
offering:
my personality—advent calendar
novelty set me free
(probably)
logically
i’m listerine in your third eye
dimethyltryptamine
the lifeline you allotted me
now you’re on my time
you little skunk
give me the crystals
or your battleship is sunk
call me dubya bae yeets
can’t defeat me
clowning on dowry is a hobby
deflowers dumb brain
with ease of a train wreck
splits heads
slithers in
so as to sever this nape
vapes rings
says things that make it onto pinterest
i’m defected
embedded with selfish
i keep at ebb
and flow over headless
i keep my age on
and pine for the magic
had it
tragic
people call that aesthetic
jd jurado-I’m defected is about doing things to attract attention and interest instead of doing what you want.
im·pe·tus \ ˈim-pə-təs
noun
(1): a driving force : impulse
(2): incentive, stimulus
stimulation or encouragement resulting in increased activity
2: the property possessed by a moving body in virtue of its mass and its motion —used of bodies moving suddenly or violently to indicate the origin and intensity of the motion
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Verbalchemy 