left suburban cities
ran to the hills
back where i told you
“i love you still”
left it back in cali
back in the filth
back in a lockbox
before it held pills
this is a fourth or a third now
of my life
i’ve spent without you
i shouldn’t have burned the bridges
in higher hopes of eviction
this is my waste of human skin
this is my backdrop
this is the stage
this is the end of it
the book’s last page
this is the reason i took it and ran
this is the end, i
shouldn’t have sugarcoated it
i should’ve told you
clipped the wings i coveted
who am i lying to?
i’m lying bare and awfully parched
been soaked in tar for way too long
could’ve been an artist
could’ve married young
could’ve took my friends then, i
should’ve run
i couldn’t fight it
they lost me too
i’ve been taken by
what’s taken you
this is a fifth or sixth now
of my life where nothing makes sense
severed all ties
disconnected
no second chance
no happy ending
what really happened to all my plans?
this is the reason
this is the way
this is midnight
dark until it’s day
this is the way it has to be
this is the end, i
couldn’t have gotten over it
i should’ve left you
before all this was evident
who am i lying to?
you should’ve known it from the start
i’ve been holding back for way too long
JD Jurado © all rights reserved 2021
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